Story of Myself

I grew up in a very simple family with two brothers and two sisters. When i was born my father worked as a foremen in a woods factory somewhere in Lahad Datu, Sabah, we lived in quarters had been provided by the company. I cant remember the whole things there but am sure about one thing that we lived well there not to say we were rich. Besides, i remember my mom loved to baked cookies and cakes during xmas. Our life there, was like we (brothers and sisters) the children of the well man.

But as the time goes, when my father moved to another company and again worked as a foreman but this time in oil palm factory at Batu Rong Kunak, Sabah for almost 3 years, again our family moved to another place but still in Kunak, and this time my father have to stay in a different place from us due to the our school issues and etc. For almost a year stayed in a rent house, finally my mom decided to buy a land from our pastor and started hired a person to build a small house on that land and we were moved before it was completed.

And the story of my life begin here..

I still remember it was evening when my family were moved to this uncompleted house. At first when i saw that house without a proper wall lol i was just surprised how we going to live in a house like that. Without any electricity, without any water supplier, this house completely taught us how to live in a difficult situation. We Would had to walked 20 minutes to the river just for shower and laundry and the rest were just hopping for the skies to give us some water.

Oil palm plantation was our field to play, river was our swimming pool and chickens were our friends to play with. How amazing our life ha? and more amazingly when my dad were not working for almost 6 months. There was a very tough time for us. My mom were kept fighting with my dad and there is a moment where we had not any rice to eat for almost a week. one day during that time, my younger brother was just asked rice crust from my mom because he could not last himself from eating cassava.

In this incomplete house, we had taught how to depending on God totally

The Journey

Last 4 years had been the most challenging years for me, I see my self change so much

from a girl with just wearing sneaker, creepy jeans and cap..but now wearing a nice girly stuff
from the most tempered person to someone that can talk and laugh so much and always with the sweet smile on my lips
from someone that doesnt even know what was love feeling like, but I now understand and even I know what is the feeling of the heart broken
from someone that couldnt even speak in English, but now I am writing a blog with this international language
and above these things, I become closer to my creator
I become someone that I never ever imagined that I could be last 5 years ago.

Today, I see myself as I am today;
Graduated from a college
Get a job
Get a driving license
Get paid by the end of every month

but I still never forget that this is all that I have today, what I am today, its all not just came from my own effort, but also from people that has been around me, people that always supported me to went through all those tough years. Especially my parents who always supported me in every way.

I take this time to thank every one that involved directly or not with my life. Thank you so much all, I know that without you all I would never ever have a taste of this moment. Thank you