Seorang Teman Y_Y

Mungkin kita sering kali lupa, tugas seorang sahabat itu adalah membangunkan teman-teman mereka yang tertidur atau dengan kata lain teman-teman yang terjatuh.

dan itu yang berlaku pada diri saya sejak akhir-akhir ini. Saya melihat seorang teman saya jatuh, saya melihat dia bergelut, tapi apa yang saya lakukan..bukan membangunkan dia, tetapi turut sama menjatuhkan dia..menyisihkan dia dari hidup saya, sebabnya saya tidak mau terjatuh dalam masalah.
Tapi secara tidak langsung, sebenarnya masalah itu telah timbul sejak saya meletkan dia di pinggir hidup saya.

Dan bila saya membuka mata pada pagi ini..ada satu remah yang menegur.. dan itu yang diperkatakan.
Seringkali kita terlupa, seringkali kita lalai, tetapi Dia tidak melihat itu semua, sebab apa yang dia lihat itu bukan apa yang sudah berlaku ,melainkan apa yang akan dilakukan atau tindakan yang akan kita ambil selepas sedar akan kesilapan kita.

Kasihnya melebihi segalanya
dan tugas kita sebagai anak-anakNya adalah
menyatakan dan menyalurkan "kasih" yang telah mengalir dalam hidup kita

KasihMu Yesus, indah bagiku
KasihMu Yesus melebihi segalanya
Tak dapat ku balas dengan kebaikanku
Selain hidup ku s’rahkan padaMu

Pakailah aku Tuhan seturut kehendakMu
Jadikan ku berharga di mataMu Yesus
Menyatakan kasihMu pada semua orang
KasihMu Yesus mengubah hidupku (dunia)

(tidak dapat cari dia punya video so i just post the lyric of the song that had been made me woke up from the sleep)

Thank God for your beautiful works in my life

One of my testimony, one i always seen, one is always makes me growing in lord is..

He never left me alone
As i walking alone here, study here, far from my family, far from anybody that i know, He send me a lot of friends either the people doesn't know God, and specially people that knows God. He not even just send me a lot of friends, but He also prepared me a "big family" here. So when i week, when need somebody to share my problems with, when i need friends to making my days wonderful.. They are always here.
Even my classmate, they are always the blessed for me, making my days stressful, making my days wonderful, making myself fizzy, and making me always talking.
When my pocket money finish...God is always use a person to send a meal for me!

God is always here for us...

everything that we do lets do according to His will,

everything that we need lets come to His feet and ask from Him

No one will understand our problems accept..

Last night..one of my friends shared about his burned to me, and for the first time i felt so down heard that. I never feel or in his situation now..but i know it's too heavy for him, especially when we come from "poor" background ( that's what he said, but for me..).

I learnt something from him..

1. We will easily show our weaknesses (without knowing that) when we are facing a problem. It doesn't matter how strong your appearance, how holy the words came out from your mouth and how matured you are. Maybe people can acting as cool as they are..but the truth will come out when someone facing a big problem! And we can see what is actually the colour of that person

2. Don't allow the situation makes us fall or down. Just flow with it with faith, be faithful in what ever that you do..everything happen in your life is happen with a purpose, and our job is to flow with the flows that God created to us...and believe that is the best for us. our thinking as a human can't interpret God's plain..He is the only one who knows His own plan for us. Learnt to be thankful, learnt to be faithful in whatever situation you are facing..

3. Put your burden to God..and carry his

one of my commits..she always says, God is waiting till we are truly surrender and come to Him put our knees in front of Him..and say "God your are in charge"

Than God will do something "wow". What is impossible to man is possible to Him.

and i know she is right..cause i always experience the same thing. He always ask for our humble heart.

it's good to be a good listener, but after that we will facing some risk...

what i should say to encourage that person?

what should i do to help that person?

am I a good friend to that person?

Am I do my responsibility as a friend to that person?

What that i learnt from this?

As we know..No one can understand our problems, but to shear it is the best way to reduce the burden on our shoulders.

and inviting God to in charge our life is the best way to solve it!

Our Father in Heaven will never left us to walk alone

and it doesn't mean He will never let us facing a problem at all

but He will be right beside us..hold us, and walk with us..so we will experience God's work in our life, and we will know how great our God!

Yahweh! He will be forever Yahweh!

AMEN~

In you heart

In a ball room there is dancing

In a forest there are trees

In a child there's a hope

That keeps him in belief

With any star there is a sky

With any beach there's a sea

With any love song there's a lover

And in your heart I hope its...

See Her Smile

I just saw this picture in my brother's facebook..and suddenly i feel like i'm indeed miss my little sister..look the way her smile! God she is the bless in our family! our little damsel ^_^ The only one..and will forever be the little one!

This photo about 3 months ago..when she was went here (peninsular of M'sia) for some official stuff.

I miss my brother too..it's been a long time never talk to him. I know he is okay! God is working on his life now coz i can see that..He will be the one who will be the second father for us.Good luck for that Arnun! i know the strengthness, the blesses, the wisdom they are come from God..So i pray that u will put God first in whatever u doing in ur life...maybe not tomorrow, but i am very sure the holy spirit is working to change ur life now! Amen~

hurrmmm miss my parents..miss them a lot! and for sure..i want to go back now..but God is not allowing yet..i will be patient for that!

never changes

for sure am my feeling with Him still same as before,

i still love him, still miss him, still thinking about him as before.

I want to tell him that how much i love him,

how much i miss the time that me and him can easily talked about our feelings each other...

it's still happen but we are being matured,

we are just see the flows bring myself to him.

Is the flow of life will bring us together?? or apart??

I'm afraid waiting for the result.

but i have to face it..either i like it or not.

and for sure i still love YOU GOD.

I never felt this feeling before..

I love him more than myself know,

i hope he knows it..

yeah he better know

it's never changes!!

it's still here

deep inside my heart,

and will be remain here...

My life now??? errmmm up side down! after what was happen past 2 weeks, but deep inside my heart says..." it's ok yoyo you will be alright". I think this is the best way for me...the time I need to life a live independently. i have to take care of myself...stop acting like I'm the youngest one, but the fact is??? am the elder sister in my family. Concentrate on my study..trying to get another 4 flet this sem (AMIN) 'sigh'

No matter what I'm still learning to be strong..to be tough..and to be a genius.

So just pray for me

Never Dream about This Before

"Oversea" erm never in my mind before...and when i came to Legenda, i taught this is a disaster for me but slowly i understand, this is the Lord's works.

Never dream about speaking English with my friends! I hate English subject when i was in high school. Because this subject is killing me,this subject make my result become so colorful you know why???
huh!! I'm always failed in this subject! Even in my SPM (Sijil pelajaran malaysia) i just get pass not credit!.
Then something wired happened in my life after high school. I didn't get any offered from government University even Politeknik. and I'm start wondered...why? I have i good result in SPM, better than my other friends that had offered.
And my family had financial problem on that time, my brother had to repeat three subject! So, i made a decision to not continued my study for a while.

I went to work at west M'sia (Subang).Then i realized one thing..even work as kitchen helper at the cafe, we should able to speak english, at least able to communicate with customer.
hahahaha funny! I hate english, but i have to speak english. But yoyo (me) still yoyo...I had tried not to hate English and started to build my confident! Only God know when am started to speak in english. Freaking! But am a tough girl so...just tried my best (practice makes perfect) right?
This is the time to correcting all the mistake that i made last time, that was in my mind on that moment.

Became a cashier, moved to another Job at japanese cafe..English like one of my language already. I just can't believed this. But i know God have purpose.

Then i came to Legenda...meet different peoples here! Black, White, Chocolate what so ever the colours are...for sure if you want to communicate with them, you have to use only one language "ENGLISH" ok?

This place makes my eyes open! I start to talking to African, Malawian, and what so ever the counties are...having discusion, and knows them, learn they culture, learn how they cook (especially nigerian) learn how they talk! God this is so amazing! Never dream about it before!
This peoples...is different from what am thought before! They are so amzing! I'm falling inlove with them (sight)

And this lately some peoples asked me about oversea, even my mom asked me about that. I just don't have any ideas about that, but if thats what God want in my life...so i will go to oversea, maybe marrying oversea guy hahaha (joking). But who knows right? So what happen next, i know God is on my side...so i don't have to worry.

I Wish Can Understand

I know something is missing in me...and i know what is it, but i don't have any confident to fight for it. So what i should do now??? I guess just pray for that, if this is the best for me, I will take it as the bless for me.
If not...God can u open the best way, give me some sign, so I will able to understand what is happening now.

Sweet moment with them...

if u can count your bless and name them one by one..

if u can...
so can u let me know how much blesses that u have now??
can you name your blesses???
u can't! i know...but even u are not able to, but i'm sure u always know that God is always by your side. AMEN!

when comes to myself...i've seen a lot of things that God done in my life...especially in my financial, in my study.
in bible says...u can't understand God...because He is the only one knows what is the best for us, he is the one who understand what His doing and He have His own time! He will give what u need at the right time! he never late in everything! Mighty God!

HIS promise He will guide us, staying at our side. Sometimes, we are wondering...why God make me like this, make me like that, why this is happening to me, and what i should do now...sometimes we forget to let God solve it. But our Father i heaven will wait until we getting feed up to solving the problems alone and when we come to Him with our humble and say..God let You do Your work!

But remember one thing He is teaching us! He let us grow in faith with situation that we faced, He always give the best for us!
Don't blame God but try to be thankful in what ever the situation that u face! After that u will see God's work in you.

One thing i learn...try fight the problem with praise and worship (Phillipians 4:6..)
See Joshua, and Jericho!
And i've seen it too! In my financial problem, i can enter the hall for test if..i can't collected my Docket(pas for entering the hall). so i need to settle my outstanding but...my mom and dad was need the money for my little sister. And one day before 2 days before the test, i went to prayer meeting and we were discussed about Phillipians 4:6. When went back to home...i was prayed and i started to practice what i've learn at the meeting. i felt the God present, and the holy spirit guide me to sang the songs one by and i found the answer through the songs that came out from my heart..i was released after talked to God
went to class the next morning, and my friend (he is attneding the same church with me) Buzzed me on ym..and he asked something that i can't remember the thing was, before i told him my situation. I don't know why i told him...but one sound asked me to just shared with him. So after shared, he asked me how much that i want. Then i was lagged for while...deep inside my heart keep talking "should i tell him or shoudn't I" coz actually i don't want to tell him because i know he will give me the money!
but he keep asking..so i tell him. And for the short story he send the money..and i did my payment at the afternoon, collected my docket around 4.00pm (thank you God)
and the next day i did the test!

I never thought that way...but He did that! Thank you Father!
See God is always good! all the time! and he never late! Thank God for blessing me in every moment.
i've seen ur blesses in me i've fells u blesses in me
but i still can't count and name them...coz its a lot!!!
Thank You Father coz choose me to be you child!

Legend Island..1-3 august 2010

After church went to airport...
flight 4.12pm delay 30 minutes so, arrived at Langkawi around 6 pm,
rent car, found motel to stayed, back side of our motel have a beach, but i can't swim hahaha
around 9.00pm went to airport, picked up Shinnie, but before that we went to Lang square..snapped some picture.

the next day we went to visit Horbour something..i forget the name already (sorry) but that place just look like am at the oversea (you can see the picture at the side).
then we moved to Geopark...which is have Cable car...huh!!! so nice...
then we did hiking to Telaga Tujoh. .had to climbed 638 stairs! tired! sweated! but am enjoying that...

Langkawi is a legend island!!! every places named based on the history happend at that paced. like Beras Terbakar...last time they burned a lot of rice there to avoiding Siam take over of LAngkawi...

Dayang Bunting lake. named based on the curse, i don't really know what the curse happend on her..hahaha

went to under water world..saw penguins there hahaha! they are soooo cute!
owh ya...if u go to Langkawi..u have to go and visit "makan Mahsuri"
the famous Legend story among M'sian.


beside the Legend story of Langkawi, it is also the best place to buy some chocolate!(that for sure) other than Labuan.

and one more thing i can't forget...i saw a couples of
Caucasian ride scooter..i mean in asea!!

i miss u already...right after u off line...
i think i having serious problem...
please i miss you indeed!!!

klu la blh terbang...i just wanna fly close to you..so i can see u every seconds in my life. so this feeling won't bother my life
if i just can meet u now...i want you to hold my hands like u did always...n i miss that, i want to feel your warm in my hand, i want to feel your love when you hug me...and i want to know how much you miss me when you look at my eyes...

when u said "i love you always" i want to say"i love u more" but u just off your line...
but it's ok..coz you know it, and i know now u missing me already like isn't it??
remember whenever i go i just can't stop thinking about you

owh my God...
IF, IF AND IF.
If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you.
But I did, I do and I always will
If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right!
If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailed for my whole life, in your heart.
I love you. Like a fat kid loves cakes.
If you have 1000 years of age, I just want to have 999 years and 364 days, so I never have to live a day without you.

by : Him (i can't put his name)
my only soul mate now n forever...and i just hope one day we still loving, missing each other...
like u always said...u can't live a day without me n u can't breath a second if u don't remember me...
i love when u said u loves me
i like when u said i miss you
n i was melted when u gave me this poem...
i just pray for this relationship. God can u just let us be together i know that's looks like impossible in man eyes...but i know in you nothing impossible isn't it???
AMEN!
p/s: love u ...(since when??? i don't know)

my very first time ^_^

u know something??? i know u don't know lol that's y i'm here to telling u...
what i'm gonna say about my very first time...bukan sperti yg anda fikirkan (hehehe) so sesiapa yg salah anggap tu sila readjust ur mind again lol...

actually, masa aku blk sabah ari tu... i think 24th april erm...ya la tu
bukan mo cerita the whole journey, but i just want to share pasal time mo landing d airport tawau. sbbnya??? luar dr kebiasaan ni LOL...
knpa??? sbb tu kapal terbang dia buat U-Turn d atas laut
biasanya tu akapl terbang pusing d atas ladang kelapa sawit jak bah...tp dak tau la kn knpa pula ari tu dia pusing d atas laut.. maybe arah angin kali kn...

ok2 d pendek kn crta...ni la kali pertama aku rasa kapal buat U-Turn d atas laut. selalu nya terbang atas laut jak (laut china selatan) ni dak tau pantai apa...tp aku tau area tawau la.
sdh la cantik, putih lg tu pasir nya
baru ko tau la bah kn klu sdh mo landing...mesti la bah tu kapal terbang dia fly rendah...
jelas and tiada kekaburan geng! LOL
baru aku mo lambai bah tu bot-bot kecil d bawah...tp aku takut auntie sblh ku kata aku sott (walaupun memang kenyataan nya bgtu)

pa-pa pun...i love tawau,
i love that pilot that day,
n i love my family...
miss u all ^_^

It's Hurting My Heart...Y_Y

yeah my heart so pain when suddenly i knew that..coz i like him...i think there is hope for me to being together with him...but aku perasan sendiri rupa nya...tp apa yg aku buat sama mcm dulu masa si Dia yg aku suku time masuk college ni pun couple dgn org len... aku bw jauh2 diri aku dr dia supaya aku tdk rasa sakit..
biar la dia dgn that girl...
from now i will not treat him like before, ckup sekadar memenuhi syarat! enough!

usually begini la aku ni...bukan teda ati mo couple but..once i get involve, once i wanna open my 1st step i will get hurt..
but i know masa dpt menyembuh kan segala nya...
or i think that i'm not found yet my Mr.Right...

but now..i hv no regrets of that...biar kn la dia dgn keluarga mereka
life must go on!
cheers YOYO i know you can do it better after this

This is life about..

sometimes kita tertnya-tnya..."wht i've done"
kadang2 rasa mcm idup yg kita lalui selama ini, sia2 dan tiada maknanya
selalu nya kita lupa apa yg telah kita lalui even benda tu one of moment of our life...

but once kita serah kn diri kita kepada Dia, setiap saat yg di lalui adalah amat bermakna, setiap detik dlm idup ini pasti nya dipenuhi berkat
apa lg bila kita belajar bersyukur dlm setiap saat...baik masa susah atau senang

honestly...aku pun susah mo bersyukur bila dlm keadaan susah..pa yg selalu aku buat..pikir mcm mn mo kasi selesai..padahal sebetulnya kita letak kn semua prblm2 tu dlm tangan Dia. biar Dia yg atur segala nya...

don't be s0mbonG

just wanna share...last sunday, Ps. Simon dtg p SIB seremban...
walaupun tidak dgr the whole kotbah...tp aku terasa di sindir dgn satu ayat... actly sindir yg aku ckp skunk ni not 'sindir' in bad meaning but in a good meaning.
ok back to the ayat yg aku ckp td tu...
Ps. Simon said..bukan nya kita mlz mau baca firman Tuhan..Tp kita sombunk! nah apa lg! Kena la muka c yoyo ni @_@ coz aclt i'm 1 of them. beginila kita as human! sobunk bila kita senang.. kita lupa siapa yang bat kita senang?! kita lupa actly we are nothing! tanpa DIA siapa kita ni??

maybe kita tdk sempurna di mata DIA, tp DIA mengenal kita sblm kita d bentuk d rahim ibu kita lg...so DIA kenal kita lbh dr sesiapa pun...so from now before we started our day just do one thing 1st... baca la Firman Nya dan jalinkan la hubungan bersama DIA...

p/s : aclty this for reminding me... yoyo jgn sombunk! espcly depan DIA yg melalui ANakNya kita dilayakkan di hadapan Nya^_^